Monday, November 3, 2008

Leaving

I have left the farm...and am now home with my parents...deciding it is best to slowly come back into the real world...rather then plunging myself back into city life. I now wake up in a warm house...and wander down to the kitchen...to drink coffee...and there are couches to sit on and lamps to easily turn on...but as I drove between farm life and "real" life...I encountered the noise of the world again...the busyness on the highways...the fast food at the rest stops...the tension which is so palpable in our world...I will miss my little cabin...the candles I read by...the simplicity of waking up and walking up a hill...milking a cow...interacting with the earth...and yet this is where the people I love reside...outside the calm of farm life...and so everywhere I am there is something to miss and something to love...I left the farm with these words...given to us....

"All that I service will die, all my delights,
the flesh kindled from my flesh, garden and field,
the silent lilies standing in the woods,
the woods, the hill, the whole earth, all
will burn in man's evil, or dwindle
in its own age. Let the world bring on me
the sleep of darkness without stars, so I may know
my little light from me into the seed
of the beginning and the end, so I may bow
to my story, and take my stand on the earth
like a tree in a field, passing without haste
or regret toward what will be, my life
a patient willing descent into the grass."

The Wish to be Generous
-
Wendell Berry-

2 comments:

Mustard said...

omg, i'm so excited i can hardly stand it!!! glad you're taking the transition slowly & enjoying some time with your parents before throwing yourself back into the greatest city in america. seriously though, can't wait to see you!

Kimberly Long Cockroft said...

what a wonderful wonderful poem. i was surprised to see wendell berry's name at the end and then not surprised since it seems to me this prophet expressed so much of my own deep longings--a deep, almost painful love of all that is beautiful and yet transitory: family, a tree, a friend, a flower in my garden.